Between 18-25 years old, I was obsessed with thinking, enjoyed philosophy, and sometimes even wanted to become a philosopher. At that time, my online name was Love Wisdom, which is the original meaning of philosophy in ancient Greek.

Looking back now, it was purely pathological. If I had not come out of it and remained disconnected from reality, I would have eventually ended up in a mental hospital; but if I had experienced deep thinking and was able to return to reality to take root and grow, that experience would instead become a source of strength.
So, no matter how my life develops or what I encounter, the spiritual foundation formed during my adolescence and youth is the most stable internal anchor of my life.